Tuesday, September 10, 2002

I dont know if I can process tomorrow.
I dont know how to process tomorrow.
I feel guilty for not relating.
I feel guilty for my lack of understanding.
I feel like I'm in some sort of 12 step process for "UnAmericanization": step 1 - leave the country. step 2 - miss the biggest event in your home countries history. step 3 - return to country and feel disconnected. step 4 - leave country again.
As much as I dont want to live here, I really do like america. And I really am thankful that I am an american.
I just dont really feel like one right now.